I have not posted in quite sometime. The truth is, it's hard to get care in this state for sickle cell. I often am tired, along with some sadness because I am in pain. The pain is primarily in my joints like my knees, hips, elbows. The pain I hate the most is in my hands and fingers, along with swelling it is very annoying. I've tried to do some low impact exercising and find that the elliptical still causes some pain but not as much as the treadmill. Swimming is the easiest by far. But none of this matters in the long run, I don't think. I still don't get the care that I need and medical professionals still don't get that having a close to normal hemoglobin count does not mean I don't have other problems. :-/
32 weeks!?!
If you are keeping count, 32 weeks has come and gone and now I am being told to hang on until at least 34 weeks. Considering that I am in significantly less pain now since the blood transfusion, I believe I can do it physically. But mentally I have hit a block a few weeks back where all I did was cry over the guilt of wanting little man out and being exhausted from the amount of things that are happening during this pregnancy. I am so hard on myself but I find solace in the fact that I have handled this situation with understanding and determination; what mother wouldn't? I tell myself "one day at a time" or as on Finding Nemo "just keep swimming" and rely on close friends and family for that extra boost of support. I am holding out and taking it as easy as I can but as some symptoms and pain decrease, others ramp up their efforts which are a normal part of pregnancy. I have a list of complaints but I will save it for those unsuspecting sympathetic ears. --Yes,
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